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Tue, 03 Jan 2006 00:17:35 GMT

I'm no longer using this account (not that I ever used it that much). If you need to talk to me or hear what's going on in my life, call me instead.

One more thing....

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 09:08:17 GMT

...yeah. There's more but I'm tired.

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 09:07:04 GMT

As I sit here with my inside churning, I am thinking to myself that a) I should sleep and b) that I should follow the advice of the Tragically Hip:

"Does it diminish your
super-capacity to love

Walk like a matador,
don't be chicken-shit
and turn breezes into rivulets

flamenco-sweep the air
and weave the sun
and stamp your feet for everyone"

Pasted below are my new years resolutions from my other LJ.

1. Become more awesome than I already am both phsycially and mentally. K and I are going to join Gold's and we're going to become even hotter than we are now, dammit. I'm sick of not being in the shape I was when I got back from AZ and I'll get back to that! It will happen.

Mentally, I want to culture myself even more. I want to teach myself how to play that guitar that just keeps staring at me when I sit on my couch. I want to host fun dinner parties with interesting people and learn from them. There are so many things to do in this life.

2. Not sleep with anyone unless there is love involved. I'm done with the "well, I just want to have fun and he looks cute and I think we could have fun". Nope. Not for me. It's only emotionally damaging and makes me feel cheap. I know I've got a good enough thing going that I don't have to play those games anymore. I never really had to but I thought I did...so that's what happened. Sometimes it takes a really blunt experience to shock you out of old patterns.

3. Along the same lines as #2...Take risks in love. Hopefully I'll have the sense to hold back when I need to but I should really take more risks with guys who have the potential to really add something to my life and not fall into 'safe' relationships. There's a guy off on the other side of the country who gets me and would be really really great and he invited me out to see him. I should just do it and not think. Plus, I've always wanted to go to Vermont. ;-)

4. Give myself a break. My uncle is dead. Maybe I'll be able to breathe now. I want to get closer to my aunt and now that he's gone...this could actually happen.

5. Give more love and spend my energy on nurturing true, genuine, and good relationships with people.

Wowie wow wow

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 07:27:43 GMT

Hello. Hi. Good to see you. Yes, you. Been a long time? How're you?

So tonight, I'm sitting in West Seattle house sitting for the 'rents while they party in NYC for New Years. They deserve it...it's been over five years since my mom had a vacation. I hope they get really wasted and make silly parent love all week. Wait, that's really gross and now my brain is melting out my ears.

Things are good. I've been very very busy. I'm hoping to be a little less busy in the coming year but we'll see how it goes. I'm going to a Pirate New Years party this year. Yaaarrrr! I'm wearing my gothic nurse outfit with a pirate hat. Basically, it's just an excuse for me to wear my gothic nurse outfit in a semi-public place. I blame it all on my friend Kristen.

I saw 'It's a wonderful life' last night with mark (my older bro) and what a wonderful movie that is! Seeing at the Grand Illusion made it even better. It'd been years since I'd been in there.

Santa brought me a new comforter this year....BED WARMING party time!! :-) Who wants to come over and paint their nails and talk about boys?

I miss everyone. Don't hesitate to call, okay?

Sat, 01 Oct 2005 06:42:31 GMT

A conversation with my mom earlier today via email:

Mom: Just kidding, I don't have a twin sister, I only wrote that because I was afraid you would not open my email after the "commie" comment I made. I knew it would tweak you but I wrote it anyway-blame the devil in me on Grandma Dorothy!!
Anyway, this is an interesting article. Found it in the Wall Street Journal that Edna cut out for me.
Love,
Mom

Me: haha...whatever. It's not like I won't open your emails. I guess what urks me are the jokes/comments/slurs/ whatever that have to do with contentious contemporary issues (ie: iraq war, bush, etc.) But commies? Eh, not a threat anymore.

I will read the article when I get a minute. Busy busy now!

-k.

Mom: Are you kidding? There are commies everywhere!!!

Me: Where's my nuclear fall out shelter?! :-)

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 03:04:17 GMT

Hello dahlings. I have created an LJ specifically for you guys because I felt left out. :-)